Difficult to Love

I've been hurt too many times
So afraid to give my best
'Cause everytime I give my all
I end up regretting it
My heartbreak has turned into
Useless, stupid, foolish pride
If I get hurt once again
I think I'll end up dying
Baby tell me it's okay
Say I can believe in you
Tell me you will not end up
Making me feel like a fool
I want to take that giant leap
Jump without a parachute
Fall into the unknown
And end up in-love with you
But what if you don't catch me
Leave me broken on the ground
Heart shattered into pieces
I don't want to be let down
So I pretend that I don't care
Put a shield around my heart
Give you nothing to discover
Hoping I don't fall apart
If I told you the truth
You would still think it's a lle
When I'm trying to be real
You'll end up questioning why
When the answer is so simple
But easier said than done
I no longer want to be
So difficult to love

The Time is Now

I'm trying not to be discouraged by what I see in my community, but it's quite clear that things are not as they should or even could be. I hear that I am an idealistic person and that I'm not grounded in reality because the world is not going to be the way that I believe it should be, but to me, right is right and wrong is wrong. Even when I do wrong, I am honest with myself, even when it hurts. On top of that, I try my best to rectify the situation. With that being said, I am beginning to come to the sad realization that many of my people are raised to fail.

It's not as if we want to fail, no one in their right minds wants to fail. The issue is, we are either afraid to succeed or believe that success will always elude us. From hand me downs to handouts, many of us don't completely understand the importance of getting our own. Sometimes, we walk around throwing a pity party for ourselves believing that someone owes us something. The fact of the matter is that no one owes us anything and that nothing is promised to us, we have to want it badly enough to get it ourselves.

We are never going to recieve forty acres and a mule until we change our mentality regarding what we have to do in order to get those forty acres and so on so forth. We have to work for it. There is no other way around it. We have to let go of, not forget the wrongs that were committed towards us in the past, especially if it's not helping us get to where we want to be in the future. What's the use of dwelling on something that we can't change?

Let's quit dwelling on the problem and let's start focusing on the solution. Let's stop finger pointing and start brainstorming. Let's stop wasting precious time and resources and start using everything we have to get what we want in life. The future is here, the time is now.