The Crazy Ex-Girlfriend (Video)

Come Back to Yourself

I looked at your smile and saw hope
i looked in your eyes and saw pain
a past that memories wouldn't let you erase
a present your past wouldn't let you escape
and my heart went out to you

At that very moment I saw in you what you did not
i saw in you what you shielded from the world
i saw the child you wanted to be
and the grown-up you were forced to become
it hurt me to know that sacred part of you
was gone before you even knew what it was

Despite objections I drew close to you
defended you from insults and accusations
no one ever gave you the chance
to realize you were a rose
more precious than the gold
or the VVS'es you cherished

Instead people used you
mislead you
in turn you mislead me
and I lost myself in your despair
narrowly escaping the entrapment of sorrow
that causes many women to forget their power
and the strength of their resiliency

My childhood dream was to save the world
from wretchedness and misdirection
to see love and harmony working together
ultimately causing joy
not just the pursuit of happiness
but pure elation

Now, I have realized
this world is not mine to save
and I am only responsible for my own soul
an old soul inherited from the struggles of past generations
a soul constantly hoping for a brighter tomorrow

For a moment I became everyone else
and turned my back on a flower waiting for the sun
what was done is done
i do not hate you
nor dislike you
i will always love you
waiting
on the woman God has destined for you to become

Finally Here

I've been hurt
but I won't let it change me
control my mind
and rearrange me
it's hard but I will keep on pressing on

Down this road
i've kissed many toads
in my quest for love
and something real
but I've always known a prince will come along



I pray to God
to keep me safe
from all the monsters
and the snakes
So I can recieve what he has in store

There was a time
when my impatience
brought me to
some tribulations
But I know the one is worth waiting for

Won't have to search
or impress
at my worse
he'll see my best
And pick me up whenever I fall

Under God
we'll share this love
climb mountains
to the stars above
and with God we'll make sure to give our all

Don't think I know u
but I already love you
don't think I've met u
but I already care
You're in my heart now and forever I'll make sure that you stay right there

Materialze
before my eyes
and there will be
no more goodbyes
I can't wait until you are finally here

Such A Fool

You saw another stupid girl you could lead on a string
and feed with your surplus of lies
Devotion to you at that time didn't exist
just deception and alibis
You played me neglected the fact that I loved you
it stared u right in your eyes
Instead of acknowledging the way I felt
you left and never said goodbye
Well I must admit I was never stupid
i knew your tricks better than you
I was so in-love it just didn't matter
what you said or decided to do
Pleasing you pleased me but when you left
felt like all of it was in vain
So many things that I kept inside
seems like all you knew was my name
Never knew that
i had many dreams
for our plans ahead
Never knew that
i longed to at least
spend just one night sleep in your bed
Never knew that I
wanted your arms wrapped around me
for you to ask about my dreams
All you knew was
what I wanted you to see
it was just an image of me
So afraid of you hurting me
i refused to let you in
and now look at us
no mess no fuss
not even merely distant friends

You saw someone
who loved you down good
someone that you rarely thought of
Someone you never imagined
was filled to the brim with unconditional pure love
What I saw was my future
you saw the present
and inevitably your past
I should have known
we were all wrong
and it wasn't meant to last



Such a Fool

Hide it in a Book

I think about my life and the rapture of dispair
wondering has there ever been someone who has cared
about the solitary tear threatening to leave my eye
when another soul has to say goodbye
i realize
Excuses are just a waste of time
robbing us of the ability to notice everything that's got us blind
I heard a old man say to a crook
if you wanna hide something just put it in a book
Education feeds
my desire to get higher
in a world that always has me under fire
I'll be the one
to sacrafice to move mountains and push hills
i find it difficult to reveal the way that I feel
When every body wants me to feel the same way
so they don't feel threatened by the things I have to say
Beating me with their insults and insecurities
never knowing there's a warrior just fighting to be free
Please don't censor me
i think deep
'cause shallow thinkin
can get u snuffed out while ur in ur sleep
This cannot be
present can't be the future Malcolm envisioned
when there's less black men in school than in prison
Where are the heroes
courageous minds
that would rather fight the system
than to kill their own kind
Don't wanna lose hope
from what I see
so I'll press on
with a hero living in me